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Seasonal Emotions #Reflections

tezmelPosted for Everyone to comment on, 4 years ago2 min read

Sometimes the dark conquers the light and a soul is thrown into an emotional tsunami. Everything around the soul is overcast by grey shadows consuming the bright and shine. A cloud of doubts sets in and criticising questions are born from self expectations.

Mine sinks there oftentimes. A self dug shallow (this time at least) grave.

Everything becomes my problem. From what's going in the society to my own responsibilities. I get obsessed with looking for solutions for everyone that I sometimes forget to recharge. It becomes draining at some point and when my spirit starts caving in, I can't help but sink into depression.

Sometimes its impossible to bring myself to share or feel the need to. I would rather torture myself than admit I am overwhelmed. The struggle to unlearn that I deserve to be under pressure all the time is taking longer than necessary. I wish myself a speedy one just for good luck.

For a while now, I have taking in the worries of the world like those of my house.

The unreadiness in a sovereign state in their fight of a lifetime. The arrogance in my fellow countrymen. Their inability to corporate with some restrictions to save their lives. The audacity of some politicians and religious leaders. That of some elite members of the community.

Our unwillingness to learn from the most affected nations.

The affected nations. The controversies surrounding the deadly virus. The pandemic it is. The additional chaos it is causing the already unstable globe. It's unending wars. It's blood stained earth. The greed that inhabits it's occupants. It's endangered species like anything female or different. Like anything wild and rare.

It's locked down population.

My headspace becomes a buzzing hub. Over-analyzing every possible outcome for anyone and anything. Sifting through indescribable trauma and unfiltered pain. I ran from my pens when it does. I am never strong enough to document my fears.

But here I am. How have you been?

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geralt.

BQ.

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