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Saying Goodbye!

trucklifefamilyPosted for Everyone to comment on, 4 years ago4 min read

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I got into the habit of walking every evening with you and your mum. We would walk to the top of the track, with you always lagging behind. Me and Freya would stop and wait for you to catch up and then we would all continue walking on together.

You always loved it, when we got to the little stream. We would rest for a little bit and I would watch you lap up the water and then we would continue on our way. I really loved each evening, how silent it always was except for the birds and the odd passer by. Then the sound of the stream in the distant.

I loved to watch you and your mum lift your heads and follow the many scents. Your tail was wagging all the time, yet I knew it took effort on your part to go on these walks but I also knew that you loved them.

Two nights ago, you didn’t wanna come on the walk with me and Freya. I didn’t push you, the days have been quite hot here and I knew that the heat was likely to exasperate your illness.


And now here I am walking the same track that we’ve walked so many times before and you are not with us. I keep looking behind me expecting to see you and you’re not there. We automatically stop every now and again and oh how I’d love to see you, just come round the corner with your tail wagging when you saw Me and Freya.

Now I find myself stopping, pausing here for a few minutes in the same spot where we would always wait for you, but you’re not coming.

You went downhill quite rapidly after that night, I went into town the following morning to get you some more medicine and when I came back I could tell, that things weren’t good. You never wagged your tail when I come back into the truck, something you would always do when you saw me. You looked so sad and so, so tired.

Now as I walk this track with your mum , I can feel her reluctance to move forward. This track holds so many memories for her, just as it does for me. She keeps on stopping and circling around me, hoping also to catch a glimpse of you.

We are all so sad, it’s hard to imagine you not being here, no longer being a part of our family. I loved how You followed my girls all the time when you were in full health. I knew that they were okay, because you were always right by their side. I didn’t have to worry about them, you are so protective and so, so loyal, especially to my eldest.

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I was with you when you took your last breath. I so sorry that you were in pain right at the end and I could feel your resistance to leave us, I could feel you fighting to hang on. So I stroked you and told you, that you were such a good boy and that you could go. That you have given us so much and now it was your time to rest.

I didn’t want you to be in pain anymore, all those months when I was trying so hard to build you back up again. Trying to boost your immune system. I know those times were challenging for you, but I stayed positive all the time.

But in the end, your body was just too tired, even though you’re so young, your body had enough!

You’re such a huge part of our family and we are going to miss you so, so much.

I’m almost at the end of the track, at the point where I usually turn around and run back With you both, that was my way of trying to build up the muscles in your back legs. But today, me and Freya are just going to walk back.

You are pain-free now and at peace and that is exactly what you deserve. I thank you for all the love you brought into my life and into my girls life. For the many lessons, you have taught me about loyalty and love, such unconditional love. Thank you, our magical tree climbing Bear.XX

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